Whether you wanted to grow up to be a game designer, an editor, a programmer, or whatever...one thing we all find out eventually is that in the end..it's only a job.

And I have two jobs right now. With the way the jobless rate is I consider myself very fortunate. And I got two good jobs with good people. Both people at my jobs are very nice and just overall really good people. I got one job where I stretch my creativity and the other where I get my physical exercise.

Yet there are always donwsides to a job.

My first job is working for Public Government Access Programming. I take programs, ingest them, as well as make Video Bulletin Boards and file reports. The problem is trying to keep myself occupied and busy without running out of stuff to do. While footage is ingesting I sometimes make a VBB. but the station I work at to do so is frustrating as Hell.

I gues my main problem with this new job is my feeling of accomplishment. Nothing really challenging has come my way yet nor anything that can truly occupy my time with something very useful to do. I DID do something once this summer that really showed my abilities as an editor. I got to make an opening graphic to this school program and it looked very awesome. In fact it's going to be sent for an award!!

But after that is was back to routine. I am waiting for other cities to pick me up and my boss is working on it. But that could take months. And in the meantime, I still have to work my second job to make money.

My new job makes $15 an hour. The problem: I only work four a days at it. So before I get an increase in hours when other cities pick me up; I still work at my same job I had for seven years.

It's not so bad but it is tiring. TO make my weekly pay I work 2-8pm at that job. It involves walking aroudn the same space over and over again and again.

The problem with this walking is that it makes me overthink too much in oder to prevent myself from getting bored. And because of this I tend to think negative thoughts eventually and jump to conclusions. This is unhealthy and I am waiting for the hour increase at my other new job so I can decrease my hours at my old job and eventually leave it.

So this is why its hard to get work done as well as finding time to be more social and go out more. I mostly get Friday nights and Saturdays to socialize. But I really only have time for events and it's not on a weekly basis. Going by myself to a bar or a restauruant those nights really bites as I get pretty lonely.

Over this Saturday I met some good people I can talk to; and I do DO hope they respond to my emails and might actually invite me to some stuff. I need people to release stress on and to talk to.

So that;'s how jobs are. They'll always eat up your time and you gotta make the most of it. I have learned to cope with my situations as well as try and think of ways to improve them.

Sooner or late i'll have more time to do what I want and accomplish what I want to accomplish. But as always, I'm still stuck waiting. How long do I hgave to wait...well...it never really has a time. Life makes me wait however long it wants to.